Monday, January 9th, 2006
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11:20 pm - everyones got it...
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| You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!
Biology | | 100% | Theater | | 100% | Psychology | | 100% | Sociology | | 100% | Anthropology | | 92% | Philosophy | | 75% | Art | | 75% | Mathematics | | 75% | Linguistics | | 75% | English | | 67% | Dance | | 67% | Journalism | | 67% | Engineering | | 58% | Chemistry | | 33% | </td>
What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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I think it is accurate.
I've always wanted to be a psychologist!
Adios.
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Saturday, December 24th, 2005
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12:27 am - Christmas eve today...
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Wow! I have had a busy first week off. I have been working a little more than usual but good thing I have been working mornings giving me the evenings off.
Well, yesterday night I went to a Christmas party past Topanga Cyn. It was awesome! I danced like a maniac. Damn I was HOT! LOL. I got to see my old boss Manuel. He is just the same perv and funny guy hes always been. I also saw Anahi and Laura they were all decked out. Making me feel like I dress too consevative. Well, Anahi can sure dance and she was up to her tricks again (provacative) Anyway the party was awesome I drank a lot. Damn having four margaritas gets to you after a while. I had a huge hang over this morning. I was sad though because I wanted to see Oscar and Evodio and the rest of the guys. Unfortunately only a few went and I was never really acquainted with them. I can't really complain since I saw them last Sat. I still see their smiling faces. I can see they really do care about me and miss me.
Well, today was a good day a lot of people at work said I was doing an awesome job. Costurmers kept asking to speak to a manager and everytime it was to say that I deserved a raise and that I was real nice. It makes me happy to know that I can make a persons day better and that I am doing a good job. I know it sounds cheesy or something you would tell your boss but... I really do enjoy working and making the costumer happy. Although... this lady a total bitch came in and was overly rude... I don't think I had experienced someone as rude as her. I had to really try hard to not say anything back. I mean I am working there because I like it and I love dealing with people but no one has the right to treat me like I am inferior. I hate those fucking mexicans (the raza) who think they are better than other mexicans... or for that matter anyone who thinks they are better than someone else because of their race.
WE ARE ALL ONE PEOPLE NO MATTER OUR RACE, OUR COLOR, OR OUR FAITH! (so get over yourselves and stop being prejudice)
I still can't believe that Christmas is tomorrow. I don't even feel like it should be. I still need to give Barb, Darion, and Marc the gifts I bought them. (sorry but I just had time to wrap them yesterday) I have been so broke although I didn't buy nearly as many gifts as I did last year.
I still have gotten no answer from Brandon and I feel like part of it is my fault but I don't know what to do. For the first time ever I am assertive and everything seems to go wrong and I feel like my feelings are taken for granted. As if I am not even worth giving a reply too.
Can't wait for my uncle, aunt, and cousins to arrive tomorrow... I AM ECSTATIC!
Oh yeah, I really want to go see the movie Memoirs of a Geisha. I think I will go sometime next week. Which reminds me I have to do my project... RATS!
The Throwers Clinic was awesome. I learned some good stuff that I think I will be able to pass on to the team. *smiles* I want our team to be better this year and to really show the other schools that Oxnard can too be GREAT! I can't wait for track!
I also have to do some financial aid applications... my mom wants me to get all the money that I can...
Damn... I also have to do my community service before that end of next month along with traffic school... which means missing school and busy weekends...
I had a weird dream with both TONY AND BRANDON... in my dream I was in love with Tony talk about strange... oh yeah I got him this keyring thing... I wonder if he liked it... will find out tomorrow since I will be seeing him....
Oh yeah, I had a dream that Barb got a job at walmart... OOOOHHHH THAT REMINDS ME... I SAW LEXY Yesterday... I guess she works at Aaron's brother's right next to Baja pretty much... it was just kind of random... guess she just got the job not too long ago... that reminds me does the SARAH QUINTON... (had to specify) LOL have a job???
I think right now I could go on and type for hours... but since I am just going to start babbling I will spare you all and try to go asleep... although it is going to be hard since I feel real wired right now... LOL...
Oh yeah,
MERRY CHRISTMAS! (MAKE SURE TO SHARE THE HOLIDAYS WITH SOMEONE SPECIAL AND TELL ALL THOSE YOU LOVE AND THAT LOVE YOU HOW MUCH YOU CARE!)
LOVE YOU ALL!
MY MOST SINCERE WISHES!
LOVE JACKIE
Adios.
current mood:  bouncy
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Monday, December 12th, 2005
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10:33 pm - my liscence came in the mail...
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well, i guess it has been sitting in my mail box for like five days... lol... damn it could not have been a worse picture... well maybe... it was taken the day of the wizard show....lol some of you may remember that day... I LOVE MISS WALL!
Damn i hate brandon for making me feel like shit... how long has it been? i've had just about enough...
can't wait for christmas break.... have to do some major shopping though... i have done none....lol
well, don't want to write anymore... maybe i'll update later...
adios.
current mood:  anxious
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Sunday, December 4th, 2005
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6:12 pm - kevin too cute...
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still no answer... i don't care anymore
well this morning while i was working my brother started to say that he was going to make me cry just like last week (last week: said something about my dad.... made me cry.... and i am still not over it) well anyway kevin was like you better stop bugging jackie or you will be the one crying. i was so touched. he is such a sweetheart... i wish he was older... we get along so great... were always laughing and stuff...
i go to court tomorrow... wish me luck... will tell you what happens...
adios.
current mood: content
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Thursday, December 1st, 2005
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9:55 pm - The almost perfect day...
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i passed my liscense test!
I am so happy. I finally got my liscense. Hopefully the judge won't take it away on monday when i go to court. I guess i got one of the hardest examiners at the dmv of oxnard (according to my instructor) I AM SO HAPPY! I could have cried.
i got free starbucks!
i went to the starbucks across from baja before i had to go in and they gave me free coffee. i was like wow. it was awesome. i tried the gingerbread latte... good stuff.
i got the 9th hana kimi!
i went to barnes and noble and they happen to have it. i thought it was supposed to come out next month. i need more money because all the mangas i want are out.
it would have been perfect... if brandon had given me an answer...
whatever... i am starting to not care anymore... i opened up my heart and he just does not care...
i am just so happy!
Adios.
current mood: ecstatic
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Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
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6:30 pm - no creativity...
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Hilbur = lab books
have to finish those
now i understand thanks ally, priscila, and caitlyn...
stole this from youri. haha. doesn't she look bomb in her homecoming pick? HELL YEAH!
| Your Heart Is Blue | 
Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.
You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return.
Your flirting style: Friendly
Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe
Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish
What you bring to relationships: Loyalty |
current mood:  contemplative
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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6:57 pm - Tom guitar...
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I want the guitar that is autographed by Thomas Delonge on ebay. All the proceeds go to the hurricane effort. The current highest bid is $1075. I wish I had that kind of money. why didn't I save. I don't listen to them anymore but the were a big part of my life and Thomas was always my favorite.
Anyone want to loan me the money? or pitch in? haha
Adios.
current mood: happy
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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
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2:37 pm
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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
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2:17 pm - changes lately...
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well, i am now vegetarian. shock, shock. i think it is time to try something new.
i am now doing yoga and i am doing meditation.
i am reading a lot more novels and looking into politics.
i am trying to detoxicate both my mind and body. trying to discover myself.
i think i am just maturing. entering a different stage in my life.
i don't know how to explain it. i am just changing. and it scares me. my views on things are changing and so are my interests. i don't feel like i belong anywhere anymore. it is all to confusing.
i want a guy friend i can talk to. someone that tells me it is okie to be going through all these changes. that it is okie to be me.
i want to be hugged. if you see me at school give me a hug. haha
super happy got my zipper copy for november with the paradise kiss special. i did my happy dance yesterday. (which consists of mainly shaking my bootie)hahaha
i hate physics. i think i am going to drop out.
gonna drive today with an instructor after school. haven't driven in tow weeks. not that i forgot it just seems like a long time. i was used to driving every day. not sure if it is the best day for driving.
i am feeling too blue.
i want to have fun this weekend. any suggestions?
i am going to go now.
Adios.
current mood: blue
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Monday, November 7th, 2005
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2:47 pm - want this day to end...
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dammit another emo day today.
what is up with me. can't i be happy.
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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
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2:39 pm - I want to understand...
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The more I think about this situation the less I understand. I mean how did it come to get so out of control. I thought I had everything figured out. I thought I had come to know what lies deep inside the soul. I thought I knew what was wanted. I wanted to just be happy. Not only for me. I feel like I am being avoided, like I am avoiding. I can't even get my thoughts straight. I just want this to end. I want the rain to come after a long drought. Life is stupid at times, and one must learn to roll with the punches. I am tired of crying every night trying to figure out what went wrong. I am tired of feeling pain. Of putting on a mask everday and pretending I am happy. I swear I deserve an oscar. I am a fabulous actress. Even now as I type my eyes fill up with tears that start to go down my cheek. (best stop that since I am in Crawfords)I am going to leave this in the past in hopes of moving on and finding some happiness, if it still excists. If you feel the same way too than lets do something about it, to be happy again, like we once were.
Halloween yesterday. worked. left early place was deserted. Tony made me laugh. That silly goose. i work with him today. yay!
dammit i was gonna talk about some funny stuff that happened yesterday, but my vision is too blurry to see the screen.
Adios.
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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2:58 pm - another quiz... and it's true...
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| You Are Likely a First Born | 
At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.
In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream. |
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Sunday, October 30th, 2005
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6:49 pm - pictures of me and darion
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if you wanna see a couple of pictures of me and darion at homecoming check out my myspace or darion's. there is a link to mine in the user info page. don't mind my boobies. lol
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5:13 pm - Homecoming...
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Damn that dance was hot. I had an awesome time. I am so glad I went to the dance with Darion. I don't regret anything. Damn I don't think I had danced that dirty in my life. I mean even at Expo I did not dance quite so crazy. Damn Darion is an awesome dancer. All the girls looked so pretty in their dresses. Damn I sure got a lot of looks. haha. It was awesome.
Dammit still haven't heard anything from the cop. I am gonna try to get my liscense this week. My uncle says that if I get it now the judge may drop the charge. I sure hope so.
Stole this from Salvadore
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
I think it is half right. haha
well gonna go now.
Adios.
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Monday, October 24th, 2005
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9:06 pm - he apologized...
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dammit now i am not mad and i just feel like a jerk. i mean this whole time i was just getting mad instead of trying to understand. he was going through his own problems and all i did was get mad.
although i don't have an answer yet its okie.
dammit i am thinking way to much about the past. lame.
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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7:14 pm - lots of bitching...
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well my mom bitched at me left and right. my dad did not say anything. phew. had to pay $700 to get truck out of the junk yard. now i have to wait to get citation to go to court and to see what i am going to be charged with. my mom said whatever the fines were, i would have to pay.
i don't mind. it was my fault. it sucks though.
probably won't drive for a long time.
although my mom bitched a lot after an hour or so she softened up and said that it was not fully my fault and that her and my dad would help me pay and stuff.
my grandma has not said anything. i bet she will since she is the one who gave me the money to pay.
as if it that weren't enough i guess my mom went on venting with all my uncles meaning now i am going to be chewed out by them too.
well, gonna try to not worry about it until i get the notice in the mail.
my mom said that i would not be grounded. that i had made a choice and even though it was not the best she said that i would learn from it. meaning i can still go to homecoming. although now i am not terribly excited. oh well.
gonna go read or something.
Adios.
current mood: discontent
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2:24 pm - my car was taken away...
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dammit i was at school already too. well, almost. if i had not ditched first period i would not be in this mess. as some of you may know i don't have a liscense and i was going to get it next month. i am so pissed at myself. i made a choice and it was stupid. now i gotta go to teh police station after school in order to try to recover the truck. my mom did not sound like she was going to kill me only a little annoyed. don't know if that is any better. i don't even want to tell her i was ditching because she is going to kill me. i just want to die. go into a deep sleep and not wake up for a while.
now i probably won't get my liscense till i'm around 19. i am gonna cry and plead he day i have to show up in court if that is what ends up happening. i am gonna say "i've never done anything wrong and this was my first and only time and i think it was punishment enough."
probably won't do much.
probably won't get to update in a while. not sure what is going down.
wish me luck! and if you believe in prayer or do any kind of magic do it in hopes of helping me! haha
Adios.
current mood:  crushed
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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7:42 pm - oh brandon...
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i can't believe brandon looks amaizing. i don't think i had really seen him in a while. i just could not help feeling sad and stupid at the same time. i mean, i know it was a long time ago but i think some part of me still likes brandon. i was stupid to have done nothing in the past. i guess it was the influence my friends had on me. now i think i make my own decisions a little more. it's like fuck what you guys think. don't like what i like, no one is forcing you. my clothes or accessories aren't of your liking, well, your not wearing them. the boy i like is ugly, well, your not dating him. damn. but hell if you don't like all that, than don't be my friend.
i just wanted to kiss when we started to talk. i wanted to hold him in my arms in hopes of turning back time. i want to go back to the days were we might have had a chance. when we hugged i just felt like crying. i think i want him. it is very selfish of me though. and it is making me sound like i am all boy crazy. but i am not. and if you think that then you don't know me at all.
i am going to try to talk to him. and i don't care what you think. it may not be the same as before but i do want to be his friend.
well went to the mall. i don't think i was much fun today. kinda got depressed than happy. i love rainy days but they always seem to get me down. hope barb and darion didn't have to bad of a time. although i did warn them we would be out all day and they agreed. if you go shopping with me when i am looking for something go at your own risk.
got myself the new ddr extreme 2 awesome. it has some of the older songs. coolie. played it as soon as i got home. than went outside and sat there for what seemed forever thinking. and now i am here.
got the new hana kimi manga. i love it. i wish i could be mizuki. i feel like a child that wishes it could be batman. haha
wow homecoming is just around the corner. it does seem like this year is going by fast. i am not sure i want to be pushed out into the world just yet.
i am feeling a little sick. gonna go to sleep. although it is still early.
Adios.
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Saturday, October 15th, 2005
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1:59 pm - ouchie...
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i am sick as a dog! (as the expression goes)
i didn't go to my Japanese class. Lame.
my throat and nose are burn my ears feel clogged and to make matters worse my tonsils are so swollen i can't eat. i woke up like at 11 am that has not happened for months. well my granny made me some chicken noodle soup and i started chocking on the noodles. i managed to get the broth down but even that made me gag. :(
i don't wanna go to work today.
i hope to go shopping on monday. maybe go to santa monica. or where ever. i need to get a dress.
i am gonna go take a nap now. maybe that will help my headache. this screen is only making it worse.
Adios.
current mood:  sick
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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
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9:12 pm - i am worried about him...
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my heart feels heavy.
i wonder if he is alright. if he needs someone who will listen. who will care.
i want him to trust me. to tell me everything.
i drive around in hopes of finding him. with no place to go. not knowing where to look.
i grow more worried by the moment. and am afraid of what i am feeling.
a feeling that i've never felt. something that i don't know how to explain. that makes my heart ache.
i just want to hold him in my arms. i want to make everything in his life all better for him.
i want to be he's hero.
i am afraid. i don't know what to do.
i should not let these silly ideas get to my head. but i can't help it.
i guess i just want you to see me as a friend.
Adios.
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